Scatter

 Pale, stretched; drawn back.
Teeth bared in a dead smile.
Black pools, ink, seeing all.
Are you here with me?
They are all here.
Just behind you, walking, pacing.
Staring.
Don't turn around.

~J.A.D

Idolicide

I am danger, what they warned you about.
I'll take everything you have, all that you love
and I will burn it to the ground.

You see in me just what I show you,
your savior built of ash and bone.
You cannot escape me, I will take what I want.

Being hollow isn't so hard, all you have to do is try.
Live empty, see the truth;
I am no good for you.

Stolen

You never spoke, never showed me how.
But, you created this thing. I belong to you now.
I eat my shame, you watch from far away.
I know it keeps you warm at night.

I thought I knew what this was,
this leash is shorter than I thought.
It's coming fast, that shining moment,
I'll chew my way out if I have to.

Back into the light once more,
back into the bright.
Can you feel me burning?
You taught me darkness, and now I need it.

~J.A.D

Abyssinia

Hot sun, cold glass, colder stares.
Perfect under pressure until you fall apart.
How can they stand it?

Smoky rooms filled with lies,
Always hiding from your eyes,
I can't stand it.

Teach me your peace, help me forget this world.
I'll dig this grave out so we can share it.

~J.A.D

Ordinary

Open water around you,
that sinking feeling.

We all feel it; the fatigue.

I am just like you.
You think this fact a lie.
But it is a life. Almost.

We all walk, cold and alone.
Silence and fear,
we are all this.

We are all the heart and soul of your tattered shoes.
The shuffling ordinary.


~J.A.D

Pretty Little Picture

Can you hear me? Don't stop listening.
Turn your head and face it.
Mute screams fill your eyes, fighting the tears.

MY VIEW, YOUR PITY.

But you are just like me.
Watch your pretty little picture distort and fade.

No I am not alone. I am inside ALL of you.
Living in that back room; the one you keep locked up tight.

Can you feel it getting crowded?
Can you feel the world closing in?

Welcome.



~J.A.D

And, Once Again… Summer

Every moment spent with you,
another silent prayer of mine.
Selfish desire and desperate lust;
I just can't shake you.

If only I was everything,
if only you needed anything at all,
maybe I could be someone.
Maybe there would be a spark.

Too scared to say it,
not terror, but giddy fear.
I promise,
I'd give you a fallen star if I had one.

~J.A.D

Something I Once Wrote...

This is something I wrote in rehab. Just stumbled across it… and I can't get it out of my head. Listening to Glitchmob's "Our Demons" and reading this took me away.


And I have seen the towering pillars of flame,
the long awaited foretelling of perdition;
a hellish cacophony come to hold 
the hearts of the lost in eternal silence.

Through this weil, the screams of the masses echo
in a heavenly chorus of lust and anguish.
These shades of us cast our world into the inky black of nightmares.

The remaining question is lost forever in the void,
lost to the winds of change and mired in decadence.

~J.A.D

Mister Plastic

Mister Plastic, false fantastic,
never really gives you what you want.
Makes you follow and leaves you hollow,
just another broken debutante.

Let him lead you, let him feed you,
eat his lie and drift away.
You think you run it, you think you've won it,
but its Mister Plastic's game to play.

There he goes again,
Mister Plastic in the dark.
You can't lock your doors and windows,
he's already in your heart.

Here I am, Mister Plastic in the flesh.
I like them young, I like them fresh.
Crawl down this hole and leave your soul,
Now you belong to me.

I am Mister Plastic, lovely Mister Plastic.
I own the weakness in you,
I'm that one thing you just can't kick.

~J.A.D